Wednesday, December 19, 2012

Amid the chaos of Christmas shopping and the world ending....

Christmas isn't the panicked shoppers racing around the mall, trying to find the perfect gift for a random friend they don't even really talk to. It's not the people diving into coffee shops for what they consider a much needed Quad Venti Gingerbread Latte, regardless of the fact that their eyes are already spinning in their heads from their last caffeine boost. Nor is it the massive tree hurdling down the highway, barely strapped onto the roof of tiny car. It's not the heated debate over whether employees should say "Happy Holidays" or "Merry Christmas" to customers.

Christmas is the boy standing with his trumpet in front of the grocery store, playing carols as he stands by a Salvation Army tin. It's the older man singing along with the trumpet as he loads groceries into his car, his deep voice never faltering, even when the trumpet player misses an occasional note. It's his wife, standing nearby and smiling softly and humming along in harmony as she watches him help her with the bags she can no longer lift. 

How many things do people miss as they barrel down the aisles at the store, trying to find the one ingredient they need that is no where to be found? 

Next time you're out, panicked and irritable because some moron almost ran you over while trying to race another driver for the last parking spot, take a second and look at everyone around you. Aside from the drivers who probably should never have been given a license in the first place. 

You might see twin five year old girls in matching pink fuzzy coats trying to decide what to get their older brother for Christmas. The frazzled woman who is running the check out counter at the store might be counting down the minutes until her son comes home from his deployment in Afghanistan, just in time to celebrate the holiday with the family. The couple waiting in line behind you for a table at the restaurant might be there to celebrate 61 years of marriage before their children and grandchildren come into town. 

Christmas only comes once a year, don't miss this one because you are too distracted by the lack of essential ingredients in your pantry or by the fact that your in-laws are coming into town for the first time in 12 years. Smile at the UPS guy as he drops your package off, ask the girl who is ringing up your 15 boxes of unsweeted baking chocolate how she's doing, drop a dollar in the tin at the door of the grocery store. 

My favorite part of Christmas is going with my family to take cookies to the firemen on Christmas Eve. Their looks of surprise and then the grins that appear when they realize it's for them is beyond priceless. Don't forget the people who work non-stop through the holidays to take care of the world around them.

Merry Christmas :) 

Saturday, November 17, 2012

Things that make me happy

-Having my family all in one place at one time
-The Band Perry's new song "Better Dig Two"
-Traveling
-Red wine
-The dollar book shelf in the library
-The movies She's The Man and Van Helsing
-Trucks and Jeeps
-Newspapers
-My jeans with holes and paint all over them
-Huge sweatshirts
-Listening to someone play the guitar
-My old teddy bear
-The moment of panic and laughter when I almost run into someone coming around the corner in the restaurant kitchen
-My XI family
-My snuggly cat
-Grande Peppermint White Chocolate Mocha with an extra shot
-Luke Bryan, Jason Aldean and Eric Church
-Road trips
-My calendar
-Summer
-My baby pillow pet penguin Scoobie
-Huge pink fluffy blankets
-Job interviews
-Backpacking
-Driving in the country
-Just Dance 3 with my family
-Walking into the restaurant at 10:45 every morning and seeing familiar faces
-My suitcase named Quinn who is currently in Barbados without me, along with my sister
-March Madness with KU
-Baking cookies
-Shirley Temple movies
-The Lord of the Rings
-Ballroom dancing
-Mint chocolate chip ice cream in a waffle cone
-The beach and the mountains
-Country boys and guys in the military
-Music people don't know about but should :Brothers by Dean Brody
-My candle that smells like strawberry shortcake that I've had for seven years
-Cindy Lou Who who was no more than two

Monday, September 10, 2012

A post of mono, discouragement and not burning the house down

Life after graduation....is not nearly as grand as I had hoped it would be. After submitting over 30 applications, I am no closer to finding a job than I was the day I graduated. But it's okay, I will continue to wipe tables at a restaurant with my diploma until I convince someone to give me an interview.

A lot has happened since I last posted, my desire to write decreased significantly after the first few rejections I got during my job hunt. Stupid Decision #2, the first one will be addressed later. After wallowing in discouragement for a good 5 weeks, I have decided to pick myself back up again and carry on :)

Finals week was exhausting, though the thought of being finished with exams pushed me to finish as best I could. Unfortunately, in the stress of finishing the semester, I decided to ignore the sore throat that I came down with about halfway through the last week of classes. This would be Stupid Decision Numero Uno.  The sore throat persisted for a week and continued to get worse so I dragged myself to the on campus doctors office. Those of you who know me well will understand what a drastic move this was on my part. Visiting a doctors office is about the equivalent of walking up to the gates of Mordor with a pocket knife on the courage scale for me. I was told that I had strep, given some sort of medication and told to come back in 3 days if I did not get better.

Three unfortunate days later, the over cheerful doctor announced that not only did I have a bad case of strep, but I had mono on top of it.

"Mononucleosis: an abnormal increase of mononuclear white blood cells in the blood." Merriam-Webster Dictionary
I'd prefer to describe it as the "can't walk up a flight of stairs without having to take a four hour nap when you reach the top" sickness.

Graduation dawned bright and early, dragging the exhausted participants out of bed at the unearthly hour of 4:30 a.m. Mr. Romney's presence at the ceremony required us to waltz our black robed selves through metal detectors and into the soccer field behind the new Welcome Center. I am convinced that we were put in that field for the sole purpose of saving the groundskeepers from having to aerate it. It was a very good plan as the high heels worn by the female graduates were probably more effective than the actual tools used for aeration.

Because I was feeling the effects of the sleepy medicine that the doctor put me on for mono, I do not remember much of the ceremony. I do, however, remember that the best part was when the founder of Chick-fil-a spoke. He is my hero and I am convinced that he is the sweetest person on the planet. Sadly for Mr. Romney, the only thing that I remember from his speech is that I won a bet with a friend regarding whether he would make a political statement during his speech or remain on topic. I am now $10 richer than I was on May 11th :)

I spent the rest of May and June sleeping. When people tell you that mono makes you tired, they aren't joking or exaggerating. I honestly slept about 20 hours in a row every couple days. I broke all of my previous "sleeping in" records.

July was spent on a three week missions trip to the Bahamas with the most incredible team I could ever ask for. The experiences ranged from roofing to washing hundreds of dishes. Our team became a close knit family and is a group of people that I will keep in touch with for the rest of my life :) I was able to set up a blog for the trip, it was really fun to be able keep the parents updated on what we were doing. Plus it was encouraging to hear parents asking which one was "the writer" when they picked their kids up. Apparently one doesn't need a job to be a writer :)

August was spent recovering from the missions trip, I wound up in the emergency room the day I came home. Let me tell you, there is nothing more interesting than sleeping three hours a night for three weeks in a row and then coming home to sleep, only to spend the time you were meaning to sleep hanging out in the ER. I have a new understanding of the words "mood swings." My poor family watched, with some amusement, me float around between struggling not to bawl my eyes out and roaring with laughter at something that really wasn't all that funny. There really is nothing more entertaining than absolutely nothing when you're over exhausted :)

Now I find myself in September already, still with no job but fully determined to enjoy where I am in life. Beck is at school in Lynchburg, Steph is at school in Barbados and Noah and I will be selling Boy Scout popcorn for the next few weeks. Nothing makes you feel like more of a creeper than sitting in your car and slowly following a 13 year old boy scout walking around a neighborhood. But the caramel popcorn makes it worth it :)

I'm reminded once again how wonderful life is, even when you're a college graduate who can't get an interview. Life is short and I really shouldn't be wasting the chance that I have to experience all that I can right now.

My goal for the next few months is to find a full time job, to learn how to cook without needing a fire extinguisher close by and to complete my Christmas shopping by Thanksgiving. If you hear a loud explosion and see a mushroom cloud in the distance, please alert every cute fireman in the county and bring some marshmallows for s'mores. If I am unable to cook dinner, I can at least roast marshmallows over the ashes of my failure :)

Life is good :)

Monday, May 14, 2012

College....check!

My countdown has ended, I have officially graduated from Liberty University with a Bachelor of Science in Communication with a specialization in Journalism.

It's hard to believe that my time at Liberty is over. I've raced to my last bus stop, taken my last spill down the DeMoss stairs and sat in my last class with Deborah Huff.

I always assumed that when I finished college I would know exactly what I want to do for the rest of my life. Now, I feel like I know even less than I thought I knew when I originally left for school. I'm not sure if that makes any sense, but it's what I'm thinking right now.

As I sit here thinking about what an amazing experience I had at Liberty, another thought hits me. What on earth am I going to do with everything that came back from school with me? The unpacking process has begun, my room looks great! However, the hallway leading to my door has disappeared in a mound of crates, rugs, curtains, textbooks and portfolios.

What comes next? Well, as of right now, I'm focusing on recovering from the mono and strep that I came down with during finals week. I will be traveling to Mexico with my family after my little sister graduates from high school in a few weeks. Also in the plans is a mission trip with Xtreme Impact to an island in the Bahamas. I am looking forward to working with my small group of girls on this trip and interacting with the other Liberty student leaders and high school students that will be going on the trip as well.

After that, who knows what I will be doing! I am thoroughly excited about the fact that I have no serious commitments after August, no school to race off to and nothing I have to be. Except for the student loans that will be floating along in November, but that will come in its own time.

I am hoping to write for some sort of magazine or newspaper in the fall, if everything goes according to plan. But those of you who know me well are fully aware of how my plans usually work out. If you see someone living under a bridge, it might be me :)

But as of right now, I am a very content, very sleepy college graduate. I suppose this was a good time to come down with mono, rather than dealing with it during last semester. I don't think I have ever slept this much in my life. Apparently it is time for me to learn to slow down and relax some, at least that's what my boyfriend and family are telling me. We shall see how that goes :)

Monday, April 30, 2012

The CLAB

As I was sitting in the clab this evening, I realized that I don't have very many more nights that I'll be studying in a place like that.

I know I posted a list in my last post, but here's another one :)

Why I love the clab....
1. The wide diversity of the people in the clab. In less than a minute, I spotted people from India, Asia, Puerto Rico, Africa, Canada, Mexico and, of course, the States.
2. The shark-like movements of students as they circle the computers, looking for an open one.
3. The rush for an open couch when someone leaves.
4. The random guy wandering around, clicking off the number of students in the clab. I've always wondered what they do with those numbers...
5. The 3339 Coms Family, y'all know who you are :)
6. The one awkward couple that is clearly beyond twitterpated and well on their way to a ring by spring type of relationship.
7. The fact that there is a social and a study atmosphere at the same time.
8. Swiping your card at midnight, sounds nerdy but it's a fun to see everyone wandering in the direction of the front desk.
9. The vending machine that's never run out for as long as I've been here.
10. That moment when the lights go out as they start to close down for the night.
11. Seeing random friends throughout the night.
12. The random kid that's unconscious on the floor, papers floating all over the place.

I will definitely be missing the clab, nerdy as that may be :)

Tuesday, April 17, 2012

Things I have never understood about Liberty

I really do love this school....though some things about it never fail to floor me :)

1. The concept behind putting three girls in one small room
2. Does Roccotown still exist now that he's moved on?
3. The copper dome that was put on the Welcome Center even though it turned dull before it was finished being built. Why it has taken so long to build it anyways??
4. My email's inability to remain any less than 90 percent full
5. The lights on the intramural field being turned off at 11 p.m.
6. The term "Worship Major" ....what does one do with this major after leaving Liberty? And why do they all look alike?
7. The placement of the electrical outlets in the dorm rooms, all on one side of the room, the side without the sink and mirror
8. How high up the paper towel dispensers are in the girls bathroom, it's impossible to reach the lever without water running down your arm and into your sleeve
9. People who socialize in the stairways going up from the Vines as soon as convo ends rather than staying in their seats
10. Why isn't there ever an 11 in Christmas Convo's 12 Days of Christmas?
11. The ballroom/grand lobby...that place gets weirder the longer you look at it. Ever looked closely at the chandelier?
12. Leggings being worn instead of pants
13. Cardigans
14. FACS majors
15. Phone calls from Liberty departments in the middle of convo *cough*Student Advocate Office*cough*
16. Longboarders
17. DeMoss classroom numbers
18. Parents who attend freshman orientation
19. Proposals at the monogram
20. LU's attempt to not be known as LU after the creation of the "theme song"
21. The thousands of red towels that are now floating around with no real purpose
22. Hall meeting and then sending all the information out in an email
23. How CFAW always manages to land on the week before major exams
24. The massively huge glasses everyone deems "cool" despite the fact that they were considered horrifically nerdy 10 years ago
25. The water temperature in Dorm 33
26. Towns Auditorium is not the same as the Religion Hall
27. The fourth floor of DeMoss....it will always remain a mystery, a confusing place even with it open
28. The constant heat on the third floor
29. Campus North/Green Hall/ Huge building that keeps growing
30. The bus system, clockwise and counterclockwise, I mean really...who's going to remember that?

Wednesday, February 8, 2012

Backpacking Trails in Heaven

Seven years ago this afternoon I was in my parents room, bouncing around to music and dusting the furniture so that when they came home it would be clean. I knew that my dad probably wouldn't ever come home but it was nice to pretend for a few minutes that he would. A family from church had just taken the kids for the afternoon and I was determined to make the most out of the quiet house.

I was listening to a Christian song that was fairly popular at that time and trying not to think too hard about what was going on at the hospital. I heard a car pull up in front of the house and glanced out the window. One glance was all it took to realize that something was wrong. I wasn't sure if something had gone wrong with dad at the hospital or if something was wrong with one of my siblings. I dropped everything, ran down the stairs, yanked open the front door only to see the face of my dad's good friend, the pastor of our church at the time. One look at his face and I knew my dad wasn't going to come back.

It felt like the floor fell out from under my family.

I don't remember much of anything from the days that followed, just snapshots really. My mom coming home and telling us. Going through pictures of dad for the funeral. Watching someone typing up the obituary. Holding my five-year-old brother while he cried. Bits and pieces of the funeral. Lori Metzger hugging me at the cemetery.

The one thing that I remember thinking over and over again was that God had made a mistake, that he took the wrong person by accident. I had seen how God had done so many great things through my dad before and then throughout his sickness. Why would God mess all of that up now?

Time has passed, many things have changed in life. Our family has expanded and we gained a new sister and a step-dad. I wasn't very keen on the idea of new family members at first. But I can honestly say, the past four years have taught me so much and I have had a lot of fun with them. Other things have changed too, Noah's almost a teenager (holy crap,) Becka's graduating from high school, Steph's in her junior year of college and mom's still managing to keep up with all of us even though we're all going separate directions (she's my hero)

The only way I can describe what I'm feeling today is that it feels like it was yesterday and forever ago at the same time. Looking back now, I can't say that I like what God chose to do with our family, but I can say that He is good and He has stayed with us the entire time. Our family is strong, we're closer than I ever imagined that we could be. And most importantly....we're okay :)

Every year my family puts up roses in our profile pictures on Facebook in Dad's memory. In my newsfeed a few days ago there was a list of the people who have changed their pictures recently. Roses everywhere. It made me smile and tear up at the same time.

I went to the cemetery a few weeks ago, just to visit. I walked up to where we buried my dad and looked down. There was a little American flag laying on the marker bearing my dad's name, a gift from a veteran he helped years ago.

It's nice to know that people remember. It's nice to know that he hasn't been forgotten.

I never realized how many lives my dad touched throughout his life and even more surprisingly, through his death. We have been able to relate with people in a whole different way as a result of what happened seven years ago.

Sometimes God says yes to prayers, sometimes He says wait, other times He says no. He told us no seven years ago. As much as I hate to say it, God knew what He was doing when He said no. And even though it's hard and we hate it, we're okay :)

It's days like today that make me think that God must have backpacking trails up in heaven